My Dreams Will Become A Reality

This is a result when you always spend your day alone, and when nothing and no one who would listen but a piece of paper. (Oh actually not just a piece because I was able to finish this after loads of drafts! lol) I hope it all makes sense.

Sometimes we are so afraid of climbing the mountain, we forget it's necessary to put one foot in front of the other to get to the summit. No matter how long it takes. You can't do everything, everyday...but you can do something. Baby steps are better than standing still.

OK, I'll get to the point. (Less talk, more action. Jenny) Of course I can't make all of my wildest dreams come true in three minutes. If I could I would, definitely! But I'm not a freakin' miracle worker. But, here are some of the quick things I know I can do..to help my "wish" or "dream" become reality. Simple stuff, but...if I'm going to carry this with me, I obviously need a kick in the pants. Well, good. Begin Jenny.

1. Write it down (advised by someone so important to me). Once you see it on paper, it becomes real...not just some pigment of your imagination. It doesn't have to be pages of text. Just a simple statement. What you want to accomplish. Do it, now. Grab a post-it, lazy you! (I am, sometimes) and I'm sure you are too. C'mon. ;-)

2. Show it to people. (I'm doing it, don't I?) haha. Take that simple statement and talk about it to someone, to people. But, don't expect everyone to hop on board and be your cheerleader. This, is where most go wrong (guilty). Just because someone else isn't "over the moon" about your idea, doesn't make it unimportant. I fear change at times. But this time I'm going to do some changes ~ good changes. My friends keep reminding me that I am capable of doing more than what I already do. So, I'll stick with it, and pursue my dream for me. Not because I want someone else to notice it. (Now I need to start my execution)

3. Take three minutes a day, twice a day. Yup, just three minutes in the morning, and at night. (okay, so I lied...six minutes total! Aha! lol) Some says they lack of time when in fact we all have the same 24 hours a day. And I realized I only need a few minutes to set aside and do something to get me closer to what is on that little slip of paper. Make a phone call, work on my business plan, go Facebooking, and then? (oh oh, no Facebooking this time and no and then! move to the Next.). Just. Do. Something. By the end of the year, I'll have put in almost an entire work week on my dream. Doesn't seem like much? Really? (roll eyes) How much time did you devote to your dream last year, Jenny, hmmm...? (a lot! but I don't think I have done much to making my dreams a reality.) So, by taking baby steps, suddenly I'll get closer to making my dream a reality than all of the "talk" of making the "big leap" like I had in the past.

Get it done. By chipping away at the big obstacles, they get smaller every day. :)

Until then, I will let you know what happens. Next.

What Happens When You Get Into A Relationship?

When you get into a relationship, you will be a lot happier?

I think that’s how it works. I’m not entirely sure. You’re supposed to feel like you’ve won some implicit race ~ the race to monogamy and security and vacations and night outs with friends and photos and movies and snacking and screaming and tears and

orgasms and i love you and i hate you. Yeah, I think that’s what it’s all about.

When you get into a relationship, you’re going to be a lot fatter?

You’ll be eating spaghetti and meatsauce every night, which will be topped with I’m In Love sauce. Every dollop of I’m In Love sauce contains 3,000 calories though.

In fact, every time you tell your significant other “I love you”, you go up a waist size. I think this is okay. I think this doesn’t matter. I think if you’re going to be fat, you might as well be in love. 

When you get into a relationship, you’re going to forget about

all the bad things that ever happened to you? That’s what happens when you have someone. You. Just. Forget. You’re on love drugs, which causes amnesia, which causes happiness. Every moment of your life is dedicated to being present and attentive. The

long stretch of time that exists ahead of you doesn’t feel so daunting.

I think that’s how it works. I really don’t know, you know?

When you get into a relationship, it will fix everything? You’ll stop getting sad while watching certain movies or feeling like a piece of crap when you read a magazine.

You’re invincible to it now. They can’t get to you anymore. The lambs have stopped screaming. I’m not a doctor though. Like, I’m not sure, but I’m pretty sure about all of this.

When you get into a relationship, you’re going to be hurting someone very badly someday.

Because that relationship will alter at some point and it will feel like the wind has been knocked out of you. This is how it all works. This I know for certain.

I know this more than the weight gain and the fixing everything and the night outs and the movies and the orgasms. 

This has happened to me. This has happened to you.

This happens. It’s sad, I guess, but it’s also just what we have to endure as people with brains and hearts and genitalia. Getting into a relationship means getting outside of yourself and into someone else, and then finding your way back to you again.

The whole process just makes you feel so…alive? Yes, that’s it. That’s

what it’s all about. Feeling alive big bang boom. Bingo. Toinks! Can I go now? :]

Rolling My Dice

I lost my way once, but now I have the chance to get back on track. No point in retracing my steps because taking them before led me to realize now what it is that’s been missing in my life. Besides, I’ve met some of the most wonderfully crazy people along the way.

We cast our own pair of dice. Sometimes we win, but more often than not, we lose. But as my favorite neighborhood serial killer, Dexter Morgan, would say: “Life doesn’t have to be perfect. It just has to be lived.”

Jenny

ROLL THE DICE

A poem by Charles Bukowski

if you’re going to try, go all the

way.

otherwise, don’t even start.

if you’re going to try, go all the

way. this could mean losing girlfriends,

wives, relatives, jobs and

maybe your mind.

go all the way.

it could mean not eating for 3 or

4 days.

it could mean freezing on a

park bench.

it could mean jail,

it could mean derision,

mockery,

isolation.

isolation is the gift,

all the others are a test of your

endurance, of

how much you really want to

do it.

and you’ll do it

despite rejection and the

worst odds

and it will be better than

anything else

you can imagine.

if you’re going to try,

go all the way.

there is no other feeling like

that.

you will be alone with the

gods

and the nights will flame with

fire.

do it, do it, do it.

do it.

all the way

all the way.

you will ride life straight to

perfect laughter,

it’s the only good fight

there is.